Bringing Justice to the World: A Five Month Retrospective on Gay and Dead

I must repent something. This list is absolute garbage. The true stars of Gay and Dead had been shunned and replaced by false gods. This comes with me liking the album way more than I used to as well. Here is the new ranking.

Songs to listen to all day

Gayer Than God: How can I forget that amazing beat and sample? Also hugely underrated those lyrics. This might stay the absolute favorite.

Buttfuckers Anthem: Last place, my ass. This is the grimiest, nastiest thing on the album. “Starts getting grimy”, get it together Bread. I’M THE GOD OF ASS

Pure Personality

Body Rolls: This is a drunken rant. Everything about it was done while totally wasted. I think my old blurb still tells it like it is. “Everybody knows me but you don’t know what I’m about”

Fallen to Pieces: Still a great start, still great lyrics. But can’t stand up to the best beats.

Day Dreamer (Sad Gay Boy): Still great. Still agree with the previous list here.

Essential to the Album

Broken Brilliance: Pretty much the perfect intro.

Fat and Dangerous: The album’s thesis statement. It may have gone from #3 to #7, but I think I can appreciate it as a whole more than I did before.

Who the Fuck is Conrad?: This song gets sadder over time.

Catchy songs

Paradise (in name only): Jess’s verse is amazing, Digi’s whining about SAO fans and dick jokes are fun.

Freak Power: Ideas.

The Bunker: Freaking Endless Jess.

Buy the album: It’ll be worth it.

Songs anyone could have done

Nihilistic Suburban Void: I still need to listen to more Death Grips.

Space Chillin’ (interlude) – Down here for its brevity more than anything else.

Quarter: Legitimately creepy verses, but I don’t like the chorus as much anymore.


Every The Fame Monster Track, Ranked and Tiered

This album defined a whole year of my life. Here’s the breakdown of how it holds up.

Transcendentally good, like seriously how is this album so good?

So Happy I Could Die – Self love: Lady Gaga’s thesis statement. I love the imagery, the sound, the catchiness. It’s desperate, but soft. Harsh, but loving. Encapsulates why I listened to this album so much.

Dance in the Dark – Should’ve stayed a single. A story of a lovestruck girl who can’t love herself. Awkward teenage me related hard to this one, and current me still loves it.

Monster – Vivid, unsettling imagery. Uses sexuality in a genuinely powerful way. Regret, love, and dance mingled together and blew me away.

Paper Gangsta – Am I honest, am I truly real? Are the people around me being honest with me? This song is crushingly intrusive. The echoing guest vocals only make the song lonelier.

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How a Favorite is Born: Neon Genesis Evangelion

Back in middle school and high school, I spent a lot of time on TvTropes. While the idea of TvTropes was an interesting, albeit controversial way of looking at stories, it was also a cool alternative to Wikipedia. (Some) Explanations were more readable, and some of the most obscure things had articles. So I’d get into a webcomic, like Ansem Retort, and through that site I’d have a source of knowledge on it. I could retread through some of my favorite moments and learn about common threads connecting TV shows and games.

Neon Genesis Evangelion was a name that appeared everywhere on that website, usually alongside the word “deconstructed”. I knew it as the depressing-sounding anime that YuGiOh abridged used a song from.

It was about a kid who hated himself. Instead of being about him getting better, it ends with the world being destroyed. And he’s left alone with a toxic love interest.

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Let me appreciate Michelle Nguyen for a Moment

A typical storytelling device is to take something that once seemed light, humorous, and innocuous, and make it meaningful or dramatic. Welcome to Night Vale starts a lot of its dramatic turns as simple jokes and asides, but I think it’s more impressive how this applies to characterization.

“Time is weird”, everyone says. It’s a funny joke, but it has serious existential implications for Earl Harlan. Steve Carlsberg, the best character in the show, is built off of the joke of the kind of person who would be seen as a conspiracy theorist in a conspiracy land like this. The payoff is in the gradual reveal of what such a person would actually be like. By starting characters as caricatures, Night Vale is able to show their humanity especially well.

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My Summer 2015 Anime Odyssey, ranked

2015 was the year I set out to watch as many great anime as I could. I made a huge list of anime that I needed to watch, and an order to watch them in. Since then the list has only grown, and I almost never watch anything on it. But for the summer of 2015, my day was almost all watching anime. These shows were formative to my idea of what anime is, as well as my idea of art in general, but my opinions of them have changed in the two years since then.

Here’s how I ranked those shows at the time.

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